“always rethinking things
and changing the world”
I've studied men to find my father
found men I've hated
and myself too much like them
cold, dirty, hungry, wasted, burnt
I've looked to men to find my neighbor
found compensations climbing down a ladder
and fears overtaking pleasures and desire
I looked to God, his finger having written names
and mine, all my justice to the least of us
make self-pity Satan than goodness love
I speak up and then I'm hit
I should have watched my mouth, he said
I get the drift, I'm injured now
my head upon my chest, my ear to truths
it seems small I know and appearance large
but I know whose people I am
a touch of cruelty in my touch
I seen sarcasm and I've seen pain
seen endless days that never ended
a parody is easy to write but hard to think
I'd like to think of somethin' that hasn't been said
what enough is, and when the wishes stop
no thank you man, sir, I'm not buying any
the list is long, I've been lied to twice
been cheated, men so small they need a ladder
to look out the window, to feel anything
that anybody said, other people on my mind
men this dumb don't swallow their pride
but every laugh is a picnic, go and teach
build the monument to our evil deeds
go and sell, trample the meek, eat dog
make a joke at other men, feels like them
derision that all men suffer, some to laugh
some cry, not to be loved I suppose
is the worst fear, not to have the money
is a terrible fright where money is power
but then you lose your desire when all is lost
take it you say as if to yourself
as if the two of you were competing
I can only do this
-- Bob
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